Hey!
It's been a lot of time and I hope you doing good. I was following you on Medium during my early times here and that time I was in college. Now I'm in university and moved to a hostel. Believe me, I couldn't understand much of this earlier, but now I do. Now I so much do. Specially this inward contradiction of simultaneously wanting to be left alone and craving for a human connection. It's very complex and I have never been able to put it into words. But revisiting your Medium stories feel very much resonating.
I hope you have moved on and life's going good for you. For me, I guess it'll take some time to get accustomed to these new feelings.